Goal #1... What a experience

I had a great time camping by myself! Our shabbot service got cancelled because my principal was exhausted and she had senior trip to go on tomorrow. I went home and started packing. It was around dusk when I finally got out there. So... in the moonlight I went on a 40 minute hike with nothing but my backpack, and my flashlight with me. When I finally reached the my spot it was a nice little place right by the Missouri River. I put up my tent using my flashlight to guide the process. Then I started my campfire and it became nice and warm. Altogether I had a great night. I heard coyotes, owls, bats, deer. In the morning I even woke up to wild turkeys all around me. What I experience, I am so glad I did it. Now just for catching that fish!!!

Goals for the Spring

What is the meaning of this and that. Sit on it and eat it while you sat. What is up. Life is good, to the extreme. SPRING IS HERE! There is not a day that goes by these last couple of weeks that I don't thank the Lord for spring. My goal for this spring is to learn to butcher a fish. I never learned how, and quite frankly the fact that is continues moving even after it's dead is a little scary. So, here we go I want to learn how to scale a fish and to camp in the woods completely by myself this year. Boy is a good one! I can't wait!!!

Ok.... When you mess up, you mess up bad. That is such a bad thing. But I am so glad I am doing this before I have kids 24/7 to realize and learn what to do and when. I got them to the point where their true heart is showing and the feelings they feel are real. But that is all I can do. God what is the next step. What is the next key factor to life. After they show you their pure hearts what comes next. Because when you have a pure heart and they have a pure heart there is no longer a battle raging, no longer a force to win. How or what do we do from here. It's like we are in standing zone. What is the next step Lord. What is it. You say that it is completely by your hand. But God, you gotta understand we are in a standstill in a moment in which it seems there is no other way to take them. What to do, what to do. Give me some ideas. Give me some insight. Because

 Uncle Tom's Cabin is about slavery in the mid 1800's. Up from slavery by Booker T. Washington is another like book. How is it that the things which were so vital in freeing the people is now in reverse motion. We each and everyone of us live, why? why? What is your dream. Really, what is your dream? For most it is the riches of this world and the life full of it all. But let me tell you somehow there still is a void. There still is a void. I don't care how many millions of dollars my dad will have before he CROAKS, he is not a happy man. The things we think we desire never come and therefore we work harder to achieve that which is nonexistent. To stop this and stop this now we must, must live for life. Not to live for that which we might achieve but live for life as each day goes by. Day after day after day after day. No matter where that puts us each day, whether that is in the messiest town or the biggest metropolis. Whether we are living rich or pulling garbage cans for a living. Whether we are fat or skinny. It doesn't matter, live each day for each day and forget about all the rest. For if you do, if you can you will see what most don't see, that is God's hand in action.